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Motivation Lost

After a couple of years  working with no plans for the future, I find myself wondering, What do I want to be when I grow up?  Where do I start and how the heck am I going to get there.  Being unemployed has made me take a long hard look at these questions and going nowhere fast.  The only things I know for sure are that if I could make a living doing my favorite thing I would be the happiest woman on land and sea.  If I could read and make a decent living just reading I would be extremely happy and whole.  Since I know this is not  possible as least as far as I have found, I must keep searching for what else motivates me.

Over the last two years,  I stopped writing completely, finding  that the work I was doing took all my mental capacity and left me drained. I was drinking heavily and making poor choices. Now my hubby and I are in the middle of the Whole30(r) program. My body shape is changing, clothes are fitting(a nice side effect), I’m sleeping, dreaming and thinking about what comes next. Do I want a typical job, or do I want another contract or do I want to take a risk and work for myself and what would that look like?   At the moment, none of these options appeal to me enough to motivate me to make a choice.

After taking numerous personality tests online, I have learned things about myself  that I never had the courage to admit.  I am wondering what happened to that girl who was going to concur the world, that woman who was fearless, that spouse who was more caring, that mother who was more giving. Where did she go and how the hell do I get her back?

 

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Who is Mermaid?

Mermaid loves all things associated with the ocean and diving but most of all she is an avid reader and will be testing her skills in writing and hopefully along the way will inspire others to do the things they love.

After many months of reading  blogs and books I decided it was time to revive my blog. Originally a  it was on Yahoo and I used it to just give my opinion on current events. This blog will not be that. Here my plan is to review blogs and books that strike a chord with me.  Later in the year I will be taking a family vacation and if anything cool happens it will appear here.  Comments are always welcome.

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